| Drowning TucsonBy Aaron Michael MoralesCoffee House Press |  | 
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El Camino
The smoke billowing from beneath the El  Camino’s hood went unnoticed by the people driving past Food Giant. But  even if they’d seen it, they wouldn’t have stopped because the sight of a  car overheating and catching fire on a summer afternoon was not  uncommon. Everyone had seen plenty of burnt-out shells on the roadside,  the metal carcasses deserted by their dismayed owners, or cops spraying a  flaming car with a fire extinguisher. As common as cactus.
 The driver pulling into the alley behind Torchy’s to make  his last delivery of the day wouldn’t have stopped if someone paid him,  because the flesh on his arms and face and chest was still scarred from  two summers earlier when his car had overheated in a Circle K parking  lot and he had lifted the hood and pulled off his shirt and wrapped it  around his hand, then used it to grab the radiator cap and twist,  thinking at the last second that maybe he should’ve let the car cool a  bit, having forgotten his father’s warning to always test the radiator  hose first because he was rushing to get home to his new girlfriend, who  liked to greet him at the door dressed in skimpy black lace lingerie  and a set of handcuffs dangling from one wrist, which still pleased and  baffled him—the way he’d scored this sweet güera—but remembering the  danger of an overheating engine just as the threading on the radiator  cap released from the lip of the opening and blew with such force that  the bones in his right hand shattered when it hit the edge of the open  hood, yet he didn’t feel it and couldn’t have screamed if he had because  the white hot water that exploded from the radiator melted his skin on  contact and temporarily blinded him, which was a good thing, he thought  later, because he was glad he hadn’t seen the looks people gave him when  he had tried to scream but only stumbled backwards, skin sliding from  his chest and arms, into the Big Block ice machine, which he collapsed  next to on the sidewalk, convulsing and bleeding and gasping for breath.  Three days later, when he awoke in the hospital, his first thought was  to call his new girlfriend—just to tell her I’ll be home soon and wait  for me and then we can do that dom/sub thing you like so much, baby. But  she never returned his calls. So even if he had seen the El Camino  smoking in the Food Giant parking lot and the woman frantically ordering  her kids out of the back, he wouldn’t have stopped for every dirty  dollar in Tucson. 
 Several of the Latin Kings were loitering in Torchy’s  parking lot, their systems blasting, admiring each other’s lowriders,  the murals painted on the hoods and the crushed-velvet interiors,  waiting on the bitches to get out of school and come strut their shit  like they did every day so the Kings could choose the lucky few who’d  get to be their rucas for the night. No one heard the desperate cries of  the helpless woman across the street. The music was too loud. And the  new mural on Chuy’s car was too impressive to look away from—a nude  Aztec goddess with tears in her eyes and two dark-skinned men groveling  at her feet.
 But Peanut smelled smoke and looked over his shoulder in  time to see a woman pulling her children from the bed of the El Camino,  then jumping into the back and thrusting recently purchased bags of  groceries into the arms of her three frightened children who ran,  trembling, to the sidewalk where they watched as flames crept from  beneath the hood of the car and their mother leapt from the back, her  skirt billowing in the air. Peanut was happy he got a good look at the  mommy’s skyblue panties. He wished he had been closer when she had  jumped because he could tell from across the street that she had a  fineass body, even if her tits weren’t that big, but her legs  were nice and she had a real sweet curve to her ass and the panties were  stuck in her crack just perfect when she jumped out of the back of the  El Camino, her skirt pulled nice and high and hung there just long  enough for Peanut to see her bottom half. The important half. He nudged  Chuy and pointed toward the mommy. The moment Chuy turned to see what  Peanut was pointing at, the front of the car erupted in flames and the  woman jumped up and down screaming my baby’s in the front my baby jesus  please fucking shit help my god what help i my baby please and Chuy  shouted the fuck? and dropped his bottle of Mickey’s and ran across the  road, ignoring the cars speeding toward him, a taxi barely missing him  as he reached the far side of the road with Peanut right behind him,  Peanut having instinctively followed him, used to running from cops and  niggers and bullets and not even thinking to stop running as he felt the  bumper of a car graze his thigh, the pain failing to register because  Chuy was just ahead so everything was fine. They always get away. Never  get hurt.
 Chuy reached the El Camino first and threw open the  passenger door while the mommy screamed my baby’s in there and held her  children close. The door handle scalded Chuy’s hand and he turned to  Peanut, nursing his hand, and they looked at each other, silently  debating whether or not they were actually going to help this lady’s kid  in the front seat. They had both seen enough cars overheat to know they  only had a few more seconds before the whole thing blew up. Peanut told  Chuy to wait, not feeling brave enough to go diving into the cab of a  flaming car for a complete stranger, even if she is one fineass piece of  work. But Chuy knew if he stopped to talk it over with Peanut it would  be too late, so he dove into the front seat and winced as the leather  interior boiled beneath his body. The buckles on the seat were too hot  for him to bear, but he tried to undo the babyseat from the seatbelt  anyway, using his thumb to stab frantically at the silver release button  in the center of the melting seatbelt buckle and pulling on the  opposite strap. It wouldn’t give. Wouldn’t unfuckingclasp. He tried  again. Again. Three. Four. Five times. No luck. Then he tried to undo  the latches on the babyseat, but, having never put a child into one of  these damn things, he had no idea how to work the straps and get him  out. He tried pulling on the baby but only managed to choke the kid on  the chest straps and all he could think was I’ve got about two more  seconds and then I’m gonna have to bail, sorry kid. He yanked on the  babyseat, trying to rip it from the seatbelt, but it still would not  budge. And that fuckin kid won’t stop screaming. Chuy shoved his hand  over the kid’s mouth so he could think without all the racket and he  kept pulling on the carseat and fumbling with the straps but no luck—how  do people figure these things out?—the straps twisting every which way  and only getting shorter and tighter and fuck it. It’s just too late for  you, kid. I’m sorry. He repositioned his hand so it covered the kid’s  mouth and nose to put it out of its misery and closed his eyes to wait  for the car to explode and kill them both. At least you won’t have to  burn alive, little guy. I’ll snuff you out and take the burn for you.  How’s that sound? Fair enough? He pressed harder, hoping to kill the  baby before the car exploded—any second now—bracing his body, tensing  every muscle for the pieces of metal that were going to come flying  through the dashboard and puncture his body and maybe he’d get lucky and  a cylinder would skewer his neck and take him out quickly. That was his  only plan now. He knew that time was running out and the kid was still  kicking, maybe I should punch the little guy in the chest. That’d crush  his ribs and probably smash his heart, but that’s better than cooking in  here like a hotdog. He counted the seconds in his head, thinking  bitterly of all the things he wanted to do that he’d never get to now.  Now it’s too late to go to NYC or Coney Island. Always wanted to see  Vicente Fernandez in concert. Go to Vegas and bet on some roulette. Then  he heard the first explosion and thought at least I died trying. He  lifted his hand from the baby’s face, his fingers stroking its soft  cheeks. Then the baby slid away from him and Chuy lay down to die, at  ease with his last act in life, happy he had tried to save the kid and  at least spared him from burning death. He felt his body pulling away  from the heat and was glad he couldn’t feel the pain of burning  alive—seemed the pain just shut off and here I thought this was one of  the worst ways to die—but suddenly his forehead struck pavement and he  was breathing water and choking and Peanut was yelling get the fuck up,  man. 
 Chuy rose to his knees and looked around in confusion,  wondering why he wasn’t dead and the baby in its carseat was sitting  safely on the sidewalk where the mommy was unfastening the straps,  trying to remove her child and hug it and kiss it at the same time. And  what the hell is Peanut doing with his 9mm out? Dumbass trying to get  arrested? Then it all came together and Chuy knew the explosion had been  Peanut blowing the shit out of the seatbelt latch and that he’d saved  both the baby and him, the crazy bastard, and the car hadn’t yet blown  up. Shit. It’s going to right—
 Peanut knew what Chuy was thinking, and he turned and  knocked the mommy down on the sidewalk and threw his body on top of her  baby. Chuy got to his feet just as the engine fire hit the gas line,  erupting into a massive whoosh of flame, and tackled the three children  who stood staring and screaming but fell silent as the heat of the  flames overwhelmed them. And then the heat was gone. 
 Chuy and Peanut and the mommy and her kids and the people  who had come out of Food Giant to see what was going on looked up to see  the El Camino that had finished exploding and now sat billowing huge  plastic-smelling clouds of black smoke and gushing flames. The worst of  it was over. They all got to their feet and checked themselves for  injuries. The only one hurt was Chuy, whose clothes had all but burned  away and whose skin was red and black on his arms and face and parts of  his back.
 Everyone started clapping and whooping and smiling at the  heroics of the two young men, and the mommy came over to Chuy and hugged  him and kissed him and wept on his shoulder. The pain of his burns was  too much for Chuy to bear so he pushed the mommy away, raising his arms  so she could see he was hurt, and she turned to Peanut and started  muttering thankyous and godblessyous and kissing his cheeks and mussing  up his hair. Peanut let the woman hug him, feeling her tits heaving with  relief against the front of his body. He wrapped his arms tightly  around the mommy and then let his right hand drift down her back—either  she doesn’t notice or she likes it—feeling the bucking curve of her back  as she sobbed in his arms. The rumply elastic border of her panties  pushed at the fabric of her thin sundress. Peanut traced her pantyline  gently, his eyes closed while he enjoyed the firmness of the mommy’s ass  and the way her body was so warm next to his. He wanted so badly to  whisper into her ear for her to follow him back to his place so he could  lay her down on his parents’ bed while they were at work and let her  show him her gratitude. He’d put on one of his dad’s romantic Spanish  records and feel her soft legs while lifting her sundress slowly and  kissing her flesh as it revealed itself with each inch the sundress  crept higher and higher until it was finally over her head and lying on  the floor. Then he’d lick her legs and make his way up to her sky-blue  panties and slip his tongue beneath the rim until he tasted her soft,  smooth, wet lips, and she’d moan and scream out his name, and he’d climb  on top of her while she continued to moan and writhe beneath him and  scream and wail and wail and the wailing turned into the wailing of a  firetruck, its horns and sirens growing louder as it neared, and Peanut  opened his eyes, his hand still cupped on the mommy’s glorious ass  cheek, her children looking up at him, the two girls confused and the  little boy with his fists balled at his sides. Peanut released the  mommy, who continued to thank him and Chuy, and then turned back toward  Torchy’s, walking a jackleg walk with his hand in his pocket pressing  his boner to his thigh so it would hopefully die down before he reached  the other side of the street where the Kings stood drinking their beers  and placing bets on who got fucked up worse by the El Camino.
