Swan Stairway

Dara-Lyn Shrager

In Silver Lake, I wash 
my clothes outdoors 
and the dog pees 
on a 2x2 pad of Astroturf. 
Thin air falls from 
the San Gabriel mountains,
but in the reservoir, I choke 
and wheeze. Some days 
I stop speaking just 
to save my breath. 

This suite of bungalows
was built in 1920, 
close enough to Hollywood 
for early-morning call 
times. Now, among lemon 
trees and dry brush, 
half a dozen strangers
share a courtyard 
of cactus blooms 
and a washer/dryer
under a crib sheet.

At dusk, fires light 
themselves. A Bounce 
dryer sheet scents 
the air. I hold a beer 
bottle in my hand. 
You arrive speaking
softly so as not to disturb 
neighbors, whose heads 
we see through brown, slatted 
shades. They are vaping 
and selling scripts into phones.
In Silver Lake, I wish 
that we could catch 
our breath when we open 
our mouths to kiss. 

After midnight, we walk 
my dog on the strip, 
pull him past taco wrappers 
flattened to the street. 
The air smells of sharp 
smoke, and neon lights 
bathe your face 
in manufactured beauty. 
I am pretending with you. 
Watch me on the giant orange 
spinning chair by
Medicine of The Angels.
Then, I'll watch you.
Push off—
cars and palm trees whirl.